He called! Guess this what he looks like when he calls. Lol.
Blarg! I miss being able to have long conversations at night that end with falling asleep mid sentence. Now I try to make sure there aren’t any quiet moments cause it’ll just end up to be time wasted.
Today we added to our bucket list that someday we’ll be able to do…you know when we’re actually in the same state without time constraints. :P
Well I’m gonna go to sleep happy tonight. Continued prayers though please and thanks.
I saw him today! :)))
One of those nights when I wanna see him over FaceTime or even just hear him over the phone. We don’t have to talk much either. Just knowing he’s on the other end would be more than enough. Its so lame of me too cause he hasn’t even been gone for a week…we’ve had longer streaks of not talking than this, but like I posted before its different now. He’s way farther, 12 time zones away, and in possible danger.
I know though that him and I will always try our best to communicate, support and be there for each other.
“Pinky Promise”
Goodnight.
but talking to Hans now feels so different. Praise God for wifi, 3G and the Viper app.
The calls dropped and failed a few times, but we got a little conversation in. Better than nothing at all right. I teared up a little (I’m happiness of course). I’m just so glad he’s safe.
:’)
I will now cherish every minute we get to talk, text, email, anything together. :)
It’s weird to think that only last week we were together, it almost feels so distant, but now here we are sulking on another “see you later”. I promised you I would be strong, I would keep myself busy, and I would be here when you got back. I intend to do those things. Along with that though..I promise to stay positive, prayerful and patient (and to send you food and other things every month).
We have nothing to be scared of. We’ve got Him on our side and His plan working through us.
I will miss you. Be strong, be positive, always have hope, always pray, pass time, do work and come back safe. We’ll be waiting.
See you later.
Before Hans I had an idea of how hard it was to be a military significant other, but actually being one…damn.
People say, oh that’s sad that he’s deploying. Oh he’s in Georgia? That must be hard. Oh you only see him over FaceTime, oovoo or Skype? That must suck.
Yes. It sucks, but that doesn’t even begin to describe the crumby feeling inside me. There are no promises that can be made, no plans can be set in stone, dates that can’t be made. It means holidays missed. Birthdays with no gifts to be given and received. No opportunities to try out new restaurants. No newly released movies to be watched. Nothing is for sure except for the will we have to try to make it work.
We always pray for the best but expect the worst. And I know very well what the worst could be but of course I look up instead down that scary possibility.
I know people know what it’s like to be in a ldr, but situations like these make me feel like I’m allowed to say its really not the same and doesn’t equally compare.
But if you will have me, I can promise that as I march away from you it is not without sharing your heartache. I promise you that every time I break your heart I will be breaking mine. Every time that I cannot answer you I will be protecting you. Whenever you want to call and you have no number to dial I will be wanting to do the same. I will protect everything that we have created together with every fiber of my being while you do the same back at home. I will honor you in everything - every moment that we are apart and every moment that I am with you. I will fight harder and push further knowing that I do so for you…And I will carry you with me in everything until these boots sit inside our home.
So when Hans told me he was deploying I thought to myself “what am I gonna do?” Not to sound like one of those clingy “oh my gosh what am I gonna do without him. Waaah!!” but Hans is the only one I talk to everyday other than family. I told him myself that I would deal with this much better if I was in Oregon and had my friends around to keep me busy.
Anyways…I prayed that something would occupy my time outside of work or that I would somehow see or make friends while he’s away.
WELL this is where the blessed part comes in. In a small but huge way He answered me and is sending me familiar faces every month till about August.
So blessed I can’t contain it. :)
It’s official! This fool comes in 7 days and 9 hours! Woohoo!!!
Dear you,
We can do this.
Day 11-what makes me happy. This guy. Walked into my room and found these.
Even from 2,000+ miles away he still puts in effort and thought into making me smile.
Happy Valentine’s day bug! Thank you! :))))
Last night I was thinking about his deployment. Of course i was quiet and he kept asking what i was thinking about, but i wouldn’t answer. Then out of no where this fool finds a penny on his bed and says “penny for your thoughts? :)” It doesn’t show here but I hella started laughing.
Rather than dwelling on what is to come I shall live in the moment. :)
The roster that everyone’s been mentioning. I Didn’t think it would have came so soon. I knew it was going to happen, but not at this rate. All we can do is prepare for the worst and pray for the best.
Prepare for the worst but always pray for the best.
Well I know that neither of us were expecting him to go so soon, but God obviously has a different plan for us. Both of us had plans this year and were looking forward to be able to do things with each other…I guess we just have to put those plans on hold.
I don’t know if there’s necessarily a proper way to prepare for this…I do know though that I have to put my faith in Him and His plan.
My prayer now is that God helps us to be strong for each other leading up to the day and especially the days that he’s gone. I pray that He gives him courage when he’s afraid, his comfort when he’s sad, his strength when weak, his company when lonely, and especially his faith and direction when he’s lost. I know we can get through this and like I’ve said before I need to trust in God’s plan no matter how uncomfortable it makes me feel.
Fiat.
Just a girl learning from the past, enjoying her preset, looking forward to her future and trying to live for the Kingdom. 
