L-A-C-E. Lace.

you’ll be home. I am too stoked for real.
-Disneyland
-parties
-movies
-new adventures
-food..and lots of it
-Christmas
-family
-friends
-oregon
-1 year
-new years

We will take advantage of each moment we get together, but in the mean time I’ll sit here and eat my ice cream. See you soon!

I miss Hans too too much. We planned to celebrate our birthdays together doing whatever it is we were supposed to do. I would be able to give him his gift(s) and see his reaction rather than packing up a box and bringing it to the post office, we would be able to attend daily mass together and even more so, we’d be able to bring our families together to celebrate another year of life that God has blessed us with. Instead, we are 12 time zones away, 7,500 some miles apart, and 12 weeks (or so) from seeing eachother.

Whining aside, I do realize that everyday is one day farther from the last time we saw each other, but one day closer to the next time we’re together. So I will continue to do my best and patiently wait as I know he is as well.

Happy Birthday to you in 4 days. :] <3

but talking to Hans now feels so different. Praise God for wifi, 3G and the Viper app.
The calls dropped and failed a few times, but we got a little conversation in. Better than nothing at all right. I teared up a little (I’m happiness of course). I’m just so glad he’s safe.
:’)
I will now cherish every minute we get to talk, text, email, anything together. :)

It’s weird to think that only last week we were together, it almost feels so distant, but now here we are sulking on another “see you later”. I promised you I would be strong, I would keep myself busy, and I would be here when you got back. I intend to do those things. Along with that though..I promise to stay positive, prayerful and patient (and to send you food and other things every month).
We have nothing to be scared of. We’ve got Him on our side and His plan working through us.
I will miss you. Be strong, be positive, always have hope, always pray, pass time, do work and come back safe. We’ll be waiting.
See you later.

Before Hans I had an idea of how hard it was to be a military significant other, but actually being one…damn.
People say, oh that’s sad that he’s deploying. Oh he’s in Georgia? That must be hard. Oh you only see him over FaceTime, oovoo or Skype? That must suck.
Yes. It sucks, but that doesn’t even begin to describe the crumby feeling inside me. There are no promises that can be made, no plans can be set in stone, dates that can’t be made. It means holidays missed. Birthdays with no gifts to be given and received. No opportunities to try out new restaurants. No newly released movies to be watched. Nothing is for sure except for the will we have to try to make it work.
We always pray for the best but expect the worst. And I know very well what the worst could be but of course I look up instead down that scary possibility.
I know people know what it’s like to be in a ldr, but situations like these make me feel like I’m allowed to say its really not the same and doesn’t equally compare.

So when Hans told me he was deploying I thought to myself “what am I gonna do?” Not to sound like one of those clingy “oh my gosh what am I gonna do without him. Waaah!!” but Hans is the only one I talk to everyday other than family. I told him myself that I would deal with this much better if I was in Oregon and had my friends around to keep me busy.
Anyways…I prayed that something would occupy my time outside of work or that I would somehow see or make friends while he’s away.
WELL this is where the blessed part comes in. In a small but huge way He answered me and is sending me familiar faces every month till about August.
So blessed I can’t contain it. :)