Caution: whining ahead

I miss Hans too too much. We planned to celebrate our birthdays together doing whatever it is we were supposed to do. I would be able to give him his gift(s) and see his reaction rather than packing up a box and bringing it to the post office, we would be able to attend daily mass together and even more so, we’d be able to bring our families together to celebrate another year of life that God has blessed us with. Instead, we are 12 time zones away, 7,500 some miles apart, and 12 weeks (or so) from seeing eachother.

Whining aside, I do realize that everyday is one day farther from the last time we saw each other, but one day closer to the next time we’re together. So I will continue to do my best and patiently wait as I know he is as well.

Happy Birthday to you in 4 days. :] <3

He called! Guess this what he looks like when he calls. Lol.
Blarg! I miss being able to have long conversations at night that end with falling asleep mid sentence. Now I try to make sure there aren&#8217;t any quiet moments cause it&#8217;ll just end up to be time wasted. 
Today we added to our bucket list that someday we&#8217;ll be able to do&#8230;you know when we&#8217;re actually in the same state without time constraints. :P
Well I&#8217;m gonna go to sleep happy tonight. Continued prayers though please and thanks.

He called! Guess this what he looks like when he calls. Lol.
Blarg! I miss being able to have long conversations at night that end with falling asleep mid sentence. Now I try to make sure there aren’t any quiet moments cause it’ll just end up to be time wasted.
Today we added to our bucket list that someday we’ll be able to do…you know when we’re actually in the same state without time constraints. :P
Well I’m gonna go to sleep happy tonight. Continued prayers though please and thanks.

One of those nights when I wanna see him over FaceTime or even just hear him over the phone. We don&#8217;t have to talk much either. Just knowing he&#8217;s on the other end would be more than enough. Its so lame of me too cause he hasn&#8217;t even been gone for a week&#8230;we&#8217;ve had longer streaks of not talking than this, but like I posted before its different now. He&#8217;s way farther, 12 time zones away, and in possible danger. 
I know though that him and I will always try our best to communicate, support and be there for each other. 
&#8220;Pinky Promise&#8221;
Goodnight.

One of those nights when I wanna see him over FaceTime or even just hear him over the phone. We don’t have to talk much either. Just knowing he’s on the other end would be more than enough. Its so lame of me too cause he hasn’t even been gone for a week…we’ve had longer streaks of not talking than this, but like I posted before its different now. He’s way farther, 12 time zones away, and in possible danger.
I know though that him and I will always try our best to communicate, support and be there for each other.
“Pinky Promise”
Goodnight.

Never a goodbye

It’s weird to think that only last week we were together, it almost feels so distant, but now here we are sulking on another “see you later”. I promised you I would be strong, I would keep myself busy, and I would be here when you got back. I intend to do those things. Along with that though..I promise to stay positive, prayerful and patient (and to send you food and other things every month).
We have nothing to be scared of. We’ve got Him on our side and His plan working through us.
I will miss you. Be strong, be positive, always have hope, always pray, pass time, do work and come back safe. We’ll be waiting.
See you later.

No one gets it

Before Hans I had an idea of how hard it was to be a military significant other, but actually being one…damn.
People say, oh that’s sad that he’s deploying. Oh he’s in Georgia? That must be hard. Oh you only see him over FaceTime, oovoo or Skype? That must suck.
Yes. It sucks, but that doesn’t even begin to describe the crumby feeling inside me. There are no promises that can be made, no plans can be set in stone, dates that can’t be made. It means holidays missed. Birthdays with no gifts to be given and received. No opportunities to try out new restaurants. No newly released movies to be watched. Nothing is for sure except for the will we have to try to make it work.
We always pray for the best but expect the worst. And I know very well what the worst could be but of course I look up instead down that scary possibility.
I know people know what it’s like to be in a ldr, but situations like these make me feel like I’m allowed to say its really not the same and doesn’t equally compare.

But if you will have me, I can promise that as I march away from you it is not without sharing your heartache. I promise you that every time I break your heart I will be breaking mine. Every time that I cannot answer you I will be protecting you. Whenever you want to call and you have no number to dial I will be wanting to do the same. I will protect everything that we have created together with every fiber of my being while you do the same back at home. I will honor you in everything - every moment that we are apart and every moment that I am with you. I will fight harder and push further knowing that I do so for you…And I will carry you with me in everything until these boots sit inside our home.
Hans De Jesus

Feeling blessed

So when Hans told me he was deploying I thought to myself “what am I gonna do?” Not to sound like one of those clingy “oh my gosh what am I gonna do without him. Waaah!!” but Hans is the only one I talk to everyday other than family. I told him myself that I would deal with this much better if I was in Oregon and had my friends around to keep me busy.
Anyways…I prayed that something would occupy my time outside of work or that I would somehow see or make friends while he’s away.
WELL this is where the blessed part comes in. In a small but huge way He answered me and is sending me familiar faces every month till about August.
So blessed I can’t contain it. :)